cost breakdown of one way tickets from new york to san francisco:
amtrak train: $310
jetblue plane: $291
(seriously, i can fly cheaper than 2 days on a train. who knew.)
because i prob wouldn't come back.
(read this first, if you care to.)
i'm trying out this lent business. there are an incalculable number of things for me to give up that would help me be a better person but one has stood out as i've mulled it over in my little brain. so, until easter, i have given up:
wanting a boyfriend.
this includes, but is not limited to, thinking about the boys i wish were my boyfriend, pining after boys who used to be my boyfriend, wondering why boys who kissed me didn't want to be my boyfriend, coveting the boys who are other girls' boyfriends and wishing they were my own boyfriend, imagining what will happen after my boyfriend becomes my more-than-boyfriend, putting off work projects/housecleaning/practicing my music/exercising/cooking/getting out of bed/everything to read blogs/make lists/draw pictures/daydream inside my head about the dress i will wear and the party i will throw when my boyfriend becomes my more-than-boyfriend...etc. it's occurred to me that the energy i spend doing the aforementioned things is essentially wasted. sure, there are things i can do bring myself closer to magical-boyfriend-land, but at some point, it's done. i'm doing them. if i'm practicing regular hygiene, going to church, being nice to people, practicing my 1:1:1 (what? you don't know about that? maybe someday i will tell you), and generally not being an anti-social trollface, my part is taken care of. the rest of that energy can be spent on things like getting myself on broadway, not being so gosh-darn broke all the time, maybe being a little more mentally/physically healthy, loving heavenly father/the rest of humanity more, and figuring out new and exciting ways to punctuate my run-on sentences. ultimately, i have no right to complain about not having the things i want (a job on broadway, a full bank account, health, an active spiritual life) if i have used up all my energy on covetousness and stylemepretty.com.
so. we'll see how it goes. and if you're trying out giving something up, how about you let me know how it goes too? what fun.
(it also means i'll stop posting rude, passive aggressive posts like the one down there, which i am leaving only because it is a really good song by a really good band that you should go download. but seriously? dumb.)